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| what is this feeling, this feeling of hasitance, this feeling of apprehension....why am i feeling this? is it a good feeling? or a bad one? why am i feeling like this? am i scared? of what? am i afraid to be close? or am i afraid of hurting her? or am i afraid to be with her? i don't know...all i know is, i'm happy when i'm with her, and when i'm not...thoughts come in and get me thinking.....whats wrong??? i need a weekend with her out of my head....it might help...
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| so this is my first post in a long time. i've realized i've neglected my readers...though few there are.
so my first month of college has been a fun one...i guess... i mean, it's not the rompous toga bananza i thought it was, well scratch that, i actually didn't think it would be a toga bananza, just more freedom, all the time.
i mean, i know that with more freedom comes more responsibility, and i realize that there are times when i have to crack down and get my stuff done, but i guess i thought my idea of 'fun' would grow and take in more activities when i got to college.
i mean, don't get me wrong, the fun i'm having is great and all...just a little...what's the word....'virgin'? now dear readers, don't try to spin this the wrong way, i'm not some party animal, i was just expectin more is all ha-ha, not alot, just a little more. because frankly, i've had more fun at home then actually at school! now what is that!
and another thing...i hate the guidlines my brother gave me! my college guidlines...yeah...they blow....i mean, i can understand them for the most part, but really....some are just alittle outrageous...
i mean,
#1 : get along with roommate...duh!
#2 : no dorm-cest...i get it...but i mean...it doesn't mean my situation would be the same as his! not saying that i currently have the hotts for any girls in my hall or anything like that, i'm just saying...
#3 : don't fall fast...meaning don't fall for the first girl i see, which is completely understandlable, i mean i'm in college, i have four years to fund a girl, and she might not even be THE girl....no point in looking right now...i have my entire life almost to find her.
#4 : don't ditch class...once again duh!
#5 : study buddy....again, this is sorta common sense, i can am okay with this one, it is helpful...sorta...
#6 : be stingy... this is understandable, i'm a poor college student....i can't be handing out money like it was tissue
#7 : don't burn bridges...don't ditch friends for other friends over a little thing, and i agree, i need as many friends in college as i can get!
#8 : be neutral...concerning friends, i can somewhat agree with this....
#9 : no freshman 15....i agree, and not gonna happen!!!!
those are the original, and i added one more for my personal enjoyment
#10 : be awesommness!!!! hahaha ... duh!
but man, i got to say, now that i'm in college, i've learned that i attract a certain type....of girl i mean....
i met this girl...i mean for one, she's black! hahahah!!!! i'm not a racial person, i just thought it was funny...that a black girl would like an asian guy hahahah! but anyway, i thought this girl was okay, i mean, we had a little in common, but nothing really special hahaha! but yeah i know she has a liking for me. but as i got to know her, i found out that she fell into a 'type' that i realized i attract....when she was younger, she watched anime...as well as almost all the other girls that have liked me in the past, though i didn't flaunt this 'trait' to them upon meeting them....just a common coincidnece... and she's the second black girl to have feelings for me, or thought i was cute....food for thought is all readers....
i would right more at the moment, but i am exhausted, so i am going to end it here, and continue at a later time!
till next timer readers,
thai
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| you are so stupid!!!! it's common courtesy to not be intimate in your parents house, especially if they are home and if you know they don't like the fact that you're dating someone. not to mention if that someone is your brothers friend. because then, if something happens, who gets shit for it, me or you? ME!! fucking idiot.....you know for a smart girl, you're really fucking retarded
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| graduating high school is an amazing feeling....i miss my friends, i miss the *always high* feeling when i'm around them. something is always happening, whether they are just hanging out, or their doing something crazy, i miss them already, and i can't wait till i see them again. some i know i won't see for a long time, others i know, i'll see in three weeks...but the wait is a wait, and i'm getting impatient. i spent six years at that institution, and now that i'm done, i kinda want to go back, just to i can see everyone again.
this summer is starting out slow, not much has happened. the only really big thing thats happened is that i got my braces rechecked....whoopie..... i don't like feeling this low or down, so i'm just waiting for something to happen....i guess we'll see, won't we?
Thai Vo
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| so i honestly think i'm in love.....i don't know how to explain it, it would be really confusing if i tried to here....but let me see....
so...i've known this girl Laurie for a long time now, like i would say two or more years. in this time period, i've physically seen her once. the first time we actually met was at a funeral, like two years ago....not the best of circumstance, i know but hey, wasn't there to hook up, grievance was the talk of the day. after that, we just talked to each other, seeing how we just felt about the situation, that was it....
then a couple of months ago, we started to get really close, like really close. i didn't think nothing of it, and i'm pretty sure she didn't think anything of it either. but recently for shits and giggles i started saying "i love you Lovely" to her, and she would respond "I love you too Handsome"
Handsome and Lovely were our nicknames for each other by the way
so tonight, via texting, she said "i love you"
and i must say, reading had a lot more impact than hearing....and i think i'm in love...but the problem is.....i don't feel a physical attraction to her....because i haven't seen her in two plus years, but i seem to have that deeper connection with her.
but i want a physical attraction with many other women, because i know that she is not the one to have that kind of relationship that i want until she is of age, which for me, is too long.....so i'm at ends....
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